So 2013 is here at last and instead of thinking about the past, I'm focusing on looking forward :) 
To much of my life's been spent looking back, on things that I didn't do and chances that I've had and basically it's just a waste of time. You can't change these things, and to live your life on if's and but's is just pointless and stopping you moving forward! 
Well no more haha.
I follow Jared Leto on twitter and I saw this status he posted:

"First day of the year. What are doing right now to make sure your dreams become your reality?"
It really got me thinking! I want this to be the year everything changes for me! I turn 30 in february and think it's about time to get serious! I know your probably reading this going "yeah yeah yeah  we've head this so many times" but for the first time I actually mean it LOL. I need to stop talking about what I want/need to do and get it done. Like no more "I'll look into how I can get prints done of my artwork" or "I've got some ideas for a collection" and defiantly no more "When I'm brave enough I'm gonna start entering afew art competitions " I need to think like Jared Leto says.........what am I doing to make these dreams reality? that I don't really have an answer for at the moment LOL. maybe you guys can help me with that?! I'm open to suggestions haha. Who know's when I go back to work next week the outcome could be bad and it will force me to come up with a plan. What will be will be! 
            It's not just my art/ career I want to change. It's me in general. I feel like I am getting abit more confident or maybe that's just me feeling more comfortable with who I am for a change! I'm pretty much happy with how I look (well I've got to the stage where I think fuck it, this is what your stuck with-work with it LOL)  I think I'm a nice girl, but there's still work to be done! I'm abit of a door mat - that definitely needs to change! I give and give and get very little back. I've been ill alot this year too, probably more then I've noticed before- maybe its old age creeping in I don't know haha but I think it's been stress related.
I've been listening toalot of music while painting and one song keeps popping up, enimen- not afraid. The lyrics have been speaking to me........
 "But I think I'm still trying to figure this crap out,
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't,
this fucking black cloud, 
Still follows, me around but it's time to exorcise these demons, 
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now! ...
And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now! (now)" 
They pretty much sum up what I'm hoping to change about myself this year. In fact it's spot on lol. 
         So my new years resolution is not to worry so much! I believe in everything happens for a reason so why stress when things are going "Wrong" because there not wrong, there just taking me down a different road! 
         I would love to be writing a blog at the end of the year telling you all that I did everything in my power to make things happen! 
         Before I leave I would love to start the new year saying a massive thank you to everyone who reads this blog and writes to me on twitter, your support and words of encouragement have both helped me and overwhelmed me at times, so THANK YOU!!! 
Hope 2013 brings you all the love, luck and happiness you deserve, have a good one you lovely lot :) 

If you have any ideas to help me out or maybe share your wishes for 2013 leave me a comment below :) 
Take care and don't be a stranger!
Donna xxxxxxxxxxx 
Current mood: optimistic! 
Now listening to: Shake it out- Florence and the machine.....well its how I'm feeling right now, I'm shaking off my demons lol.

The Short Artist's awards!

I had so much fun with the "getting to know you music quiz" that I thought we could do a review of the year questionnaire :)
One word to sum up 2012.... Rollercoater! The year started off ok, got emotional in the summer for good reasons (makes a change) then got shitting by the end of the year :(
Song of the year:......  Either Fun we are young or Stay -Rihanna 
Album of the year..... Who else but the Killers- battle born! I waited ages to get my hands on there new Album and it didn't disappoint. 
Worst song of the year.......Girl on fire- Alisha keys or Call me maybe- Carly Rae Japsen Girl on fire I can't even tell you why I don't like it, it just grates on me lol and call me maybe is so bloody catchy!!! 
Highlight of the year....... Gotta be the Olympics and Paralympics! That was a once in a life time moment for us brits to witness. I cried so much in that one summer through joy and pride, I was exhausted lol. 
Personal highlight of the year....Erm I'm struggling for a stand out moment from this year but I think just the way my family and I have stuck together and laughed in the face of our problems really :)
Hero of the year....... So many choices this year, do you go for the queen? 60 years on the throne and still going strong. or Boris Johnson? the guys just hilarious! or any of the Olympicians? I'll narrow it down to 3. From my real life- the Quick Ladies- mum and Emma for going smoke free- yay!! and From the world of celebrity I'll go for Bradley Wiggins, he won the tour de France and won gold at the London Olympics- all with a couldn't care less attitude, which I loved.
Sports star of the year.....Again I could choose so many but I'm gonna go for a top 3! 
Number 3:  Gemma Gibbons- I normally wouldn't care about Judo but she was bloody amazing gaining that silver medal and when she looked up to the sky and whispered "I love you mum" it broke my heart! Number 2: Mo Farah - I've always been a big fan and my family cheered so loud when he won he's double gold medals!  and Number 1: Fernando Alonso.....Come on you knew it was gonna come Lol. He thought so hard this year and never gave up, so to get 2nd in the championship was amazing, especially as it was so close! 
Comeback of the year: .......Kimi Raikkonen who else! I've always been a massive fan so I was super excited for him to return and to get 3rd in the championship proves he hasn't lost it LOL.
Villain of the year.......Victoria Pendleton- I just don't like her LOL closely followed by my dad- he's been a total arse this year but then that's not surprising!
Twitter person of the year.........I could name so many of you guys that I've had fun with this year or that have encouraged me but I'll give it to the lovely Claire @button_rose1985, We have had THE most girly chats this year, everything from boys to fashion to stalkers LOL and she's opened my eyes to a world of fanfics- some I'd rather forget :P  
Unsung hero of the year...........Miss Chloe @mama_plus2! What this girl does is incredible! I won't go into details as I know she won't like that but she's amazing and doesn't get the credit she deserves.........plus I know she reads this LMAO :P 
and finally Crush of the year (those crushes you didn't even realize you had lol)........ Mines number one, Mark Cavendish -Ok so I might have always seen him as "that hot cyclist" but when he was with Jake for the cycling I think I paid more attention to him then the races lol. Those eyes, that smile- just makes you melt! And crush two - Jon Richardson- this kinda just creeped up on me LOL he was always someone I could relate to- always single, bit OCD etc but this year I think it's turned into a full blown crush!! even my mum calls him my future husband or long lost twin lol.

Your turn now guys, join in...................
Me doing the MoBot lol
See even Jake agrees he's hot :P
your feeling quite honoured stalker ;)
01/02/2013 3:11am

haha OF COURSE I was going to read this how couldn't I - *wipes away a tear* I feel very honoured to be up on that list and for the very kind words.. but yes I may have to break your leg if you said much more about me ;P lol - love youuu ;)

You have always shown such great determination and I think if you now keep thinking about wanted your work out there and with the help of social media it is something that is capable of happening.

...and who knows I might even make you come to the pub when I'm up your way this year! lol

- this is the year of making things happen... even if I have to give you a few kicks along the way ;)

01/02/2013 6:11am

Hahaha you read it before I had even had time to tag you :P Aww thats ok hun but I did think you'd beat me up through the internet if I went into detail :P
Cheers yeah thats already helping, through my art site and twitter I have over 11 thousand views on my site and a waiting list of 5 paintings lol :)
LMAO I shall need those kicks, thats for the suppot mate love you too :) xxx

01/02/2013 6:24am

Great blog as always Donna. I'm going to pinch your awards idea though for my own blog lol ;) x

01/02/2013 10:45am

haha thanks mate and your more the welcome after i stole your song idea before hehe :P

01/02/2013 12:28pm

Well at last we have an update, Its been far too long in coming :-). Well i think youve come a long way from when we first talked about stuff and youve helped me immensely this year when i have been on the verge of giving up on life all together so its a massive thanks to you for that my dear, means a lot. I think the second half of the year youve really perked up despite some people (your dad) not being the supportive person they should be, but your mom and sister have been great from what youve said. Well this year will be your year i think with the commissions your getting, you should enter a few competitions and even if you dont always win youve got your art into the public domain and something might come of it, if you dont try it you will never ever know. Think positive

One word to sum up 2012: shit, without doubt the worst year of my life for lots of reasons, mainly my depression and suicidal thoughts that really pushed me to the edge.

Song of the year: Dark Black by Kristina Train. beautiful song with some great lyrics, she will be big in 2013

Album of the year: well ive not bought anything thats really grabbed me and ive thought this is brilliant so ill leave that

Worst song of the year: well theres been so much dross in the charts this year. Ill say James Arthur as its a rubbish song and yoiull no doubt agree totally with me :-)

Highlight of the year: going to Lords to watch the cricket cup final. Even tho warwickshire lost it was a brilliant game and lovely day

Personal highlight of the year: none whatsoever

Hero of the year: Harry Moseley. If you dont know who he is then shame on you, Google him if you dont and you will be inspired.

Sports star of the year: Ellie simmons. what a hero

Comeback of the year: i agree with you on Kimi. what a great year even if he bottled the overtake on Vettel when he could have easily done him.

Villain of the year: Jimmy Saville, simples or @saltyf1 hahaha

Twitter person of the year: @bearnecessity. the friend that everyone needs, well i couldnt put you could i that would be far too easy ;-)

Unsung hero of the year: YOU and only you

Crush of the year: Gail Platt, Darcy Bussell, Flavia, pretty self explantory as they are all drop dead gorgeous.

well thats the end so heres to 2013 being a better year for us both

01/02/2013 9:10pm

A Good and Positive Start Donna :) Keep It Up :)

You dont Need to Change Alot Donna, You are Beautiful, Talented and a Really Good Person, There are Certain Things That Need to Be changed, Minor Things They are so dont worry and I Think The Changes are Beigning to Occur, First sign Being You getting Confident :)

You Getting Confident Is a Good Thing, Just Belive In Your Self and Have Faith In Yourself and You will Do Wonders Belive Me :)

And Yes You Need to see to It that Your Work Is Displayed in Art Galleries, Taking Part In Competitions is not that compulsory or Important But Getting You Work Published Is So You Do that :)

You dont Need to Hurry, Remember Slow and Steady Wins the Race :)

As I Said You have Started This Year on a Good Footing, It Will Come to You Slowly, Just Keep doing what You Do Best ( Painting :) )

All The Best for 2013 :)


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